Review : Schizo By Nic Sheff.

                                                   

Hardcover, 272 pages                                                       Published September 30th 2014 by Philomel Books            Genres: Ya , Contemporary

The fascinating, shocking, and ultimately quite hopeful story of one teen’s downward spiral into mental illness by the bestselling author of Tweak.

Miles is the ultimate unreliable narrator—a teen recovering from a schizophrenic breakdown who believes he is getting better . . . when in reality he is growing worse.

Driven to the point of obsession to find his missing younger brother, Teddy, and wrapped up in a romance that may or may not be the real thing, Miles is forever chasing shadows. As Miles feels his world closing around him, he struggles to keep it open, but what you think you know about his world is actually a blur of gray, and the sharp focus of reality proves startling.

Written by the New York Times bestselling author of Tweak, Schizo is the fascinating, and ultimately quite hopeful, story of one teen's downward spiral into mental illness as he chases the clues to a missing brother. 

Lately I have read a large amount of books dealing with mental illness, perhaps starting my degree in psychology is influencing my decision in books.Anyways this is one of the better Ya books dealing the mental illness.This book not only tug my heart strings but also open up to a reality I do not live but many do.The novel not only deals with schizophrenia but the life on must live with it.Nico is able to make Miles a character you care for despite the lack of relatedness.

Miles deals with schizophrenia , but is still an caring brother, son and friend.He cares for his little sister and his two best friends.Miles is character who I rooted for to get better.I really did like him.His family is an awesome addition to this book , because you can how miles disorder affect them.Even through their struggle , they try there best to be supportive for miles, even though it not the easiest thing to do.Miles continues to blame himself for the disappearance of his brother, blaming him for creating stress i his family. Obsessed with finding him and making things right for his mother, father and sister.

As we miles in his epsiodes, those moments of vulnerability are quite sad and emotional. I feel for him , and hate that he see himself his life as over.When everyone was scared of him , I just wanted to give him a hug and let him know it's okay.The author is trying to tell reader that a  disorder should not destroy your life , and to overcome the problems instead of giving up.

I do have to mention that is book opened my eyes to the extent of this disorder, and the major ways it influencing ones life.Before I never understood as that serious but this book opened my perspective on it.

This book was a short , yet an emotional read. I am glad the direction of the book went and enjoyed learning more about schizophrenia and how it affects an whole family together

Top 5 Wednesday

Hello fellow readers, today is going to be my first time in participating in  T5W, a fun post to discuss some random ideas and thoughts.If you would like to join just check out Lainey's goodreads account. 

Today's topic on hand :Top Authors You Discovered This Year.

At first , I thought this would be hard but looking at the books this year I have discovered quite a bit of authors!

                                     1. Lauren Destefano 

Perfect ruin is one of my favorite all time books, and the beautiful writing done by Laren has made me fall in love with her books. Only to discovered her books in 2015 , I hope to read much more books from her. 

2.Sally Green 

Once again , reading one novel from her this year, Sally is a author who I can't believe I have only discovered her this year,Still haven't gotten into Half Wild yet , but it will be read soon !!

3.Robert Galbraith

This counts right ??? Besides the fact that Robert and JK.Rowling are the same person , technically they are not.I have discovered Galbraith series , The Cuckoo's Calling , and soon couldn't stop myself from buying The Silkworm.Galbraith is able to write a modern mystery book that is interesting and compelling. 

4.Matthew Quick 

I put him here because there are plenty of books I
want to read from him and just started with his recent book , The good luck of right now in 2015. I adored this book from the minute I started and really liked the writing style and character development Quick has in his book.I am soo glad I finally read one his book and can not wait to read his other novels.

5. Patrick Ness 

I am late to the party right ... so late that I missed the cake.Ugh I know but you know what its never too late to begin reading Patrick Ness book.I started with the knife of never letting go and had some troubles with it but in the end loved it and saw what was so amazing with patrick ness. His ideas are so out there and different and I love that about his novels.I am currently reading More than this and I am quite enjoying it so far.

Well there you have it,a handful of authors I admire and can not believe it took me this long to pick of their novels.

If you guys have any comments or concerns with my T5W comment down below, question my                                                                     my insane list.

Letters.

Hello fellow readers, today I hope to introduce a new feature to my blog.Letters to fictional characters. For now this will be a monthly featurette preferably a book I have read in the current month on up here on the last day of the month.So I will write a letter to a character in a novel, either yelling at them or adoring them.I will try to make it non-spoiler letter, but I am not promising anything.Anyways expect the first one on the 31st.

October Tbr.

Welcome to a spooktacular month , which includes midterms, Halloween town reruns and books.Hopefully I can muster up a good reading month as the year fastly approaches 2016.Here is a list of books I hope to reader with a cozy sweater.

1.The Wrath and The Dawn by Renee Ahdieh.

This books reminds me of October , I really don't know why but it does.Maybe a Arabian theme Halloween party could be in my future? Anyways I bought this a couple days ago and cant wait to start this hyped up book.

2.The Silkworm by Robert Galbraith.

I am soo excited to read this book.I fell in love with first book and can not wait to see where this 2nd one leads Mr,Strike.Ugh a good mystery book is always a must read for me.

3.Tiny Pretty Things by Sona Charaipotra and Dhonielle Clayton.

 Murderous ballerinas , I am in.This story follows young ballerinas in the cutthroat world of dance. I hope for a lot of drama and blood.

4.Liars Inc by Paula Stokes.

A kid who pretty much creates a mini career out of lying for others , kind of badass right? Till one kid is lost , maybe died while meeting an online friend.This mystery novel sounds intriguing and promising.Hopeful this has awesome plot twists.

5.Schizo by Nic Sheff.

The novel follow the main protagonist who deal with schizophrenia and the mysterious disappearance of his brother ,which he still blames himself for.He tries to deal with everyday teenage struggle and try to find his lost brother.I have already read this book and thoroughly enjoyed it .Expect a review coming out soon.

5 books, not that much but hopefully and I can fit those in with school.Anyways I hope everyone has a spooky month.Also check back on here for upcoming reviews and discussions at this blog.

Have a happy October, and let yourself indulge in some goodies and watch some Halloween classics such as twitches!

I was here by Gayle Forman.

                              I was here  by Gayle Forman.                   

  

Published January 27th 2015 by Viking       Juvenile (first published January 1st 2015)

Hardcover, 270 pages

Genres: Ya, Contemporary.

When her best friend Meg drinks a bottle of industrial-strength cleaner alone in a motel room, Cody is understandably shocked and devastated. She and Meg shared everything—so how was there no warning? But when Cody travels to Meg’s college town to pack up the belongings left behind, she discovers that there’s a lot that Meg never told her. About her old roommates, the sort of people Cody never would have met in her dead-end small town in Washington. About Ben McAllister, the boy with a guitar and a sneer, who broke Meg’s heart. And about an encrypted computer file that Cody can’t open—until she does, and suddenly everything Cody thought she knew about her best friend’s death gets thrown into question.

 
I Was Here is Gayle Forman at her finest, a taut, emotional, and ultimately redemptive story about redefining the meaning of family and finding a way to move forward even in the face of unspeakable loss

What a surprise this book was, a good one actually.I have read Gayle Forman's past books, and really did not enjoy it as much as others did . But this one was truly a wonderful piece of work.The novel follows Cody after losing her best friend to suicide. She feels left in dark , wondering how could she missed the signs and why her friend never approached her about her problems.She agrees to pack Meg things from college for her parents. Through this wild wind adventure the truth starts to float to the surface , one that is hard to fully understand.

  

This book was amazing , the plot had a tragedy in it but yet I was in golfed by this mystery , which moved along the plot gracefully.I love the book for not focusing on the funereal and the after proceeding of one's death but straight went in to the real focus in the book.I applaud Gayle for real showing the sadness in this tragedy instead of glossing it over, suicide as romantic or black and white.It complicated, messy and leaves many forever wounded.That is what makes this book phenomenal.

The writing was okay , nothing whimsical and poetic like If I Stay, but it did not need it.Cody is a very cut and a dry narrator , the topic was hard and the writing also showed that. Reading it, you felt absorbed to the pain and get this eerie feeling, but that feeling is needed to understand how everyone feels.

The characters we pretty amazing. Cody is young adult who has identified what she is supposed after meg has left her, alone and confused.But she is determined, truthful and a layered character.She does not want to become what expected of her , but beyond it.She meets a Megs roommates, who I loved. Stoner dude is hilarious and love the depth Gayle gives him, he is not a flat character at all.Alice is a funny and sweet girl who loves to help Cody and truly be her friend. Harry was the true underdog in the book for me , beside me a computer hacker, he is sweet and lovable. Lastly is the love interest ( because this books dyingly needed one ), He is a rocker dude, who knew meg before she fell to her demise and is the puzzle to the this complicated mystery.

The character development is beautiful, the relationship between Cody and her mother began a broken one but flourished into a supportive relationship which was heartfelt to watch.Both grew from this tragedy and come out stronger as a whole unit, Cody able to call her mother "mom", admitting her pain and receiving undeniable support is beautiful.

This novel truly showed me the reality of suicide and not the YA version of it.Its tough complicated and a sad.This book just thinking about it gives me goosebumps, but well worth it.

I give this book a 3.75, I believe everyone should check this novel out.I do warn that they are some suicide triggers, and if your affected please skip this one out.